Friday, 27 October 2017
So amidst dealing krappily with the krapp that I bin delt
I take a walk and some pictures-
its nice out there,
and its good to remember that the nether world is full of hidden angels
and it’s ower job apparently to make them appere in our world as we live.
Rilke said that.
But the shy etheral buggers generally don't.
Maybe we are blind
Meanwhile sun smiles on autumn
Friday, 13 October 2017
Jedburgh. So it’s 3 am it’s dark I can hear the wind outside and I am alone in my parents house with a load of books. Feeling fragile and alone? Well not really ; I cannot feel alone and fragile because I feel connected to people precious to me across the world who with strength and optimism are dealing with the effects of natural catastrophes: Pilar and Pedro in Puerto Rico Stephen in California with a houseful of refugees from the fire there and on the train up here from London I was talking with 2 young women from Houston Texas who seemed on one level very naive white Texan but we’re both nurses who had been working in hospitals in the city dealing with People impacted by hurricane Irma. So who am I to feel sad for my plight? I have known this situation has been coming, and can feel hard done by because of my ataxia, my teeth, my economic situation, not having seen my daughter, my parents my aloneness but really, count my blessings, when this world is suffering. Fires, hurricanes, plastic in the food chain ...I know we can only deal with our own situation but
Sunday, 1 October 2017
the number of times
I go to contact on phone or computer
a specific person about a specific thing
and look for their address or a specific thing to communicate
because I want to and then I get distracted by something else
into something else and a 'you can, you can' mentality-
wasteful disillusioning and mind numbing
and then time has gone
and I forget what I was trying to do